I have never done a blog before but I heard it can be good therapy. So here goes. My husband and I were highschool sweethearts. We married when I was 16 and he was 17. The year was 1975. We had the world by the horns and hearts filled with love for each other. We had our first child , a daughter when I was 17. She is the apple of our eyes. Then when I was 18 we had another daughter who was stillborn. We never knew such pain as the loss of a baby. When I was 19 we had our son. He is the apple of eyes again. So that completed our family. We raised our children with much love and disipline. When I was 26 I had to have a hysterectomy. The begining of several surgeries in my life. I went to highschool till I had my first daughter. I quit in 11th grade. Then after I had gotten both children potty trained I returned to Highschool. I was bound and determined I would walk down that isle with my graduating class and show my kids what I expected of them. I graduated top of my class. As our children grew, went to school, I decided to go back to school. Our kids were older at this time. So off to college I went and became a nurse.Our kids graduated and went on to college as well. Now our kids are grown, married and our daughter has two beautiful children of her own. Our son still does not have children but loves his neice and nephew with all his heart and I know he would love to have his own someday. He would be the perfect Daddy. So I pray that someday he will have children. We live in the country on a family owned farm. We have Donkeys and Boer Goats as well as 2 dogs and several barn kitties. We have both worked hard to be where we are today and owe it all to God. He blesses us everyday. But things changes in life and not always for the better which is what happen one dark March night in 2009. I was at home, my husband at work. He became ill at work and left early to return home in hopes of getting to feel better. He did not make it home as planned. A drunk Driver hit him head on on a dark curve. His truck went airborne and flipped serveral times. Thank God again he was wearing his seatbelt. He sustained a 6 inch cuccussion on his head and without us knowing injured his leg. mulitple cuts and scrapes and bruises. The Dr at the ER in a rural town sent him home after several hours. A few days later he could not lay down to sleep, He could not breathe without servere pain,I rushed him to His Dr and they put him into the hospital. By midnight they did a CT with contrast and found multiple pulmonary embolisms in both lungs and the pulmonary artery. He was sent to Centennial in Nashville with little hope he would recover. Much Prayer later and the wonderful care of the Dr's there he came home after one week on blood thinners. He was completely unable to work which caused severe depression to only begin to rear it's ugly head.After 6 months he was taken off his blood thinners. He had to had a tumor removed from his shoulders that had grown 8 inches long by 4 inches wide. One week later his symtoms returned and I rushed him to the ER only to have him airlifted to Nashville once more with a grim prognosis. All this because of a drunk driver. Again the great and all Powerful heavenly father intervened and one week later he returned home. He has since suffered not only from deep depression but Post Tramatic Stress Syndrome. So now we are trying different meds to try to get his mind to stop racing and playing the accident repeatly , He has his counciling he goes to, His bloodwork every two weeks, The disabilty of not being able to work on him, multiply meds he has to take and the inabilty to sleep well which leaves him exhausted as well as myself with worry for him, Again all because of a drunk driver.